From: Ayame33@aol.com

Okay..><  i hope it turns out better than that song fic.. mou.. demo heres a 
go, its a poem from kenshin's pov... sorta... enjoy...^^

ayame

Reflections of a Reversed Sword
By: Ayame Wariinai

I am more than one
two.
I live a mirrored life
My actions,
My mind,
All mirrored.
I used to love,
but it only lasted
shortly
I fear to love,
to care
to show that I have connections with those that i care about
for fear
that they too
will dirty themselves with blood
the one I once loved,
Killed by my own hand
Her memory still haunts me
Kaoru,
You've tried so hard to make me happy
to make me feel welcome
yet
I cannot make myself feel these things
I find myself wondering
why?
You know me and my past,
Yet, 
you care...
you love me...
Don't be suprised, I'm observant
I know,
I want to show you I care, 
but...
what if...
I hurt you...too?
I want to tell you
But I know I'll hurt you
I don't want to dirty your hands
your pure hands,
your soul
with blood

A cold heared killer
myself
does not deserve you
or the others
My friends take a risk
to know me
the other me
the battousai
may strike out...
and 
they know
I may not be able to bring myslef back
yet
they care
Am I truely worhty of those who care about me so?
Kaoru
Yahiko
Sanosuke
Misao...
so many to name
I've changed since I met you all
I wonder
If this was ment to be

Do I turn form those I care for to protect them?
I want them to be happy
I want to do the right thing now
no more hurting
only protection
I want to stay with them
but
I'm a rurouni
I bring danger
I wander
and people look at me
my sword
my scar
The reason why I am who I am

Sometimes
I wonder
who was I before sensei?
A scared boy
a slave
who watched the ones he knew
be slaughtered in thier attempt
to protect.. him.

a boy
who wnated to be strong
who thought things
could be changed with a sword
a stubborn boy
with a scar
is the same as 
the slave boy
who wanted to change the world.
They are both too stubborn
to understand
themselves.

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