Hi...The fox is back¡... with an rxistencial doubt. i have an old story in spanish* my first fic, truly , of Kenshin, and I dont know if is worth of translation and send here... Here is the resumen... GenevaWell , this is" Faraway Star , a Meiji era Ballad" my angst and favorite fic. I write it in spanish because my english sucks , I'm sure you're knowing it now ..is maybe long story. . .and I'm afraid is't really good . . . but i really want to told this story about Kenshin . Chapter1 :Unmei no haguruma. Its a sunny day of early winter after the Kyoto arc.A very happy Kaoru is walking in the city , with a money bag she get from and kindly tourist who buy an shinai and a lessons ,and she's going to buy some presents and warm clothes fo everybody .Whe she end she have a encounter with Saitoh . In this moment , a horses with a carriage went mad and almost ATROPELLAN the two : Saitoh saves her but the carriage goes to a gaijin store and all the broken glasess fall over them . A slim figure stay in the way and stop the mayority of the glasess with a broom , but is hurt badly . kaoru thinks is Kenshin , but isnt . Is a young boy of her height , with the hair white ,around 20 years old .She carry him to the clinic and Megumi and her attends all the others wounded persons too . Yahiko appers and Kaoru encommend discloth the youngster. . .and when she arrives again in the room yahiko is very VERY angry . is a girl . Megumi y kaoru discovery her back TOTALLY cover with old scars , and horrified decides care of her. kaoru decides take her to the dojo and take care of her : she looks very bad-treated , no just the glasess , too hungry and exhausted .For the surprise of all ,yahiko take care of the young girl with all efforts ,sano laughing soo much . The next day she awakens. . . and didnt say a word. But Yahiko appers understand her and talk with her easily. . .and answer for her .kenshin look her awakens , and run to the kitchen . the girl haves a huge purple eyes , very strange . . .and when kaoru ask her name , yahiko declares with total security "Haru" . Chapter 2.Sobakasu .-Scars Sano finds Kenshin in the kitchen. . . totally amazed,see him burning the food and part of his sleeve aparently his mind is far , far away . The burning end with Sano pushing Kenshin in the water and a burned keikogi. . . sano talks to him , thinking he did look a litle yellow spark in the eyes of Kenshin , and Kenshin accept he is very upset . The eyes of the girl are identical at of an old enemy, and really awaken very sad memories .sano dont let him go and hold him ,soothing him . Then laughs , and make him fix the burned dinner . Kaoru and Sano really falls in love with the silent girl . kaoru and Megumi make really good friends with her , dressing her in a green kimono ,braiding her silver and very long hair , walking and talking with him . Her manners was so distinguided . But Yahiko truly falls in love . he turn in a young gentleman , a nurse always behind the peaced and mute girl,sat by her all the afternoon , and talk , talk , talk answering for her to him and to everybody with security . he becomes inseparable , really kindly and sweet . Kaoru and Sano can't believe it . But Kenshin was really strange . He he's really sneaking out . he never appers be close to the girl . He never talk her . he almost run when she appears . and a day , manwhile he made the laundry Kaoru talks to him , no angry,just curius and upset .She tell him he's hurting the silent girl and Kenshin ,sad , decides apologize to her. it doesnt blame of the young girl she reminds him a foe. These nigth after dinner he kneel by the girl and apologize . sano saw him so ense and look her eyes . and she talks for the first time . She screams in horror BATTOUSAI at seen his eyes and fainted in fever .. And kenshin , pale like a ghost , leaves the dojo in a rush, with Sano behind. Yahiko and megumi take care of the girl . yahiko dont mind the girl whispers yahiko-chan and with tenderness , he cares of her. Meanwhile , Sano find kenshin crying in the river and kenshin tolds him a sad story . In the end of edo era he figths four times with the leader of the kazegumi , a elite of aizus , elite army of the shogun Keiki , in his castle of Osaka , in fushimi batlle , in the temple of Uyeno . But in the final nigth of kioto kenshin completely crazy and battousai-way , almost insane and drunk of death and horror find him injured . He did kill many Ishinshinshis without mercy , and kenshin takes revenge : tie him and make him really terrible things , leaving him to bleed to death in the mud . Was the one time he kills with pleasure . He tells Sano almost without voice he did desire the Osaka Hawk and hate him for this . kenshin cries . Hoshino-san , the leader of the Kazegumi , have the same purple eyes than Haru, but the hair of hoshino "The Osaka Hawk" was black, in a high ponytail . He thinks probably are brothers . "I can't support the horror in her eyes . she knows what I did to the Osaka Hawk , sano" he thinks he must levae and let her live peacefully in the dojo. sano punches him . and tell him very angry he doest have the rigth of ruin the lives of everybody in the dojo just because he doest so brave to confront something . He takes ken under one arm and backs to the dojo . To home . oh , my god sounds so stupid resumed. . . Im sorry . . .Im a bad writer. . . snifff. Chapter 3 : Omoi : odorenai warutsu.: Memories: Undeanceable waltz. The fever of haru down at morning . A tired kenshingumi waits , and Yahiko says he knows kenshin did hurt in someway to haru in the past , but he isnt believe this matter anymore , because he is a dufferent man now . haru , very weak still , agreed and explains she doest remeber anything of her past included her true name : but she thinks in this way too . And Haru stays in the dojo , very loved for ayame& suzume . . ..and all . She results have a good sewer , and made new clothes and all : then , a tired Kaoru discovery she is very good with numbers and drop in her hands the contability of the dojo . and the dojo awakens , and bloom . The money-at end - start coming , and theyre really have a good time . Haru ended making numbers for Tae and the clinic , and is really good .. And Kenshin and her starts to closening . A nigth few months later a joyfull Tae invites all to a dinner in Akabeko.And like a surprise , Tae did buy and gramophone .Kenshin did saw somes in the foreign ambassadors houses who did protect in the Ishin and tells everybody the pourpose ,and tae puts a waltz . kenshin , very red ,try to teach a ruburous kaoru to dance but ended in the floor .haru decides to try and for everybody is evident she did made it before : sh dances with kenshin perfectly. Tae and sano join , and yahiko , jealous caught Haru. . .and Kenshin is caugh by megumi (oh oh oh oh !!!- -Oro. . . .-) Later , walking to home , theyre assaulted by a group of bandits . Sano and kenshin of course get ride of them in minutes , but one of them caught Haru . . . and she throw him seven meters away. megumi arrives wuth the police -and Saitoh ,very cynical -who says he needs to talk with Kenshin . Chapter 4.Tsuki no maku-hoshi no maku . No moon no stars . Saitoh explains to Kenshin and Sano , in a bar ,the death of two men , killed by decapitation with long cuts in the chest . Every head appeared with a sword in , and Saitoh give to Kenshin one : a katana with black leather (®vaina?) and a missing jewel or stone. Then go , saying to Kenshin to be careful because isnt like nobody knows what he did to the Kazegumi leader Hoshino . In the way home , kenshin tells Sano he understood that the two dead men was Kazegumi working to gaijins , and the code of kazegumi , Hoshi no michi shirube , the way of the star , was totally xenophobus. This mean , he thinks , the missing jewel and the injures - the typical techique of the IMA KOSO HABATAKE ,( open your wings ) of the Osaka Hawks mean vengeance againts old kazegumi sell out . Well , he begins worry about Haru . . ..and what the Kazegumi did if they find a possible Hoshino girl living with the man who kill horribly his old leader . meanwhile Haru dreams with the secret kiss of a man dressed in deep blue , with blue eyes black hair in a high ponytail ,silk black bangs in his eyes , a yellow fabric in his face . A figth , and attack to an ambassador . . .the battousai figthing AGAINST the men of her dream , a tall young dressed in ligth blue and white , the words: IMA KOSO HABATAKE She awakens crying and go to the garden of the dojo trying to stop . She finds kenshin here , very nervous . He offers tea to her , and then told her all : his suspects over her family ties with Hoshino Haruka , the murders the posibility of the Kazegumi looking for her , or him and the obvious way they'll react if finds them together. He says he don't know what to do : he just want to protect eveybody . Haru answer , with trembling voice , what looks a like the man named Hoshino and when she knows he doest look like the man of her dreams cries softly ; is quite a shock for her . Kenshin try desperatly to comfort her .He brokes saying all is his fault. And totally overhelmed for all , confuse for her stunning analogy to Osaka Hawk , his one pervert dream and shameful,he ended kissing her with wild passion.When he tries to deep the kiss , Haru aparts really scared all her body screaming an red alert , trembling and terrified , when she feel his hands in the scars of her back over the fabric . Kenshin , for first time incoherent , almost cries saying he really really never did want to scared her or damage her , but Haru , too really in shock , says she doesnt apart because he did damege or scared her ; was because THIS is other person's own . She asks him to forget all did happen . He agree , almost cannot restrain the tears trembling . When she did go ,he let him fall , crazy in his thougths : Kaoru -dono : what I did made.He knows he loves Kaoru . But Haru haves a strange chemical with him , the same was with the Osaka Hawk . Desire .. A deep . overhelming , unbeareble desire and hungry : when he felt for the first time his body awakens to Hoshino he did want kill him . And he did , undertaken his dark and savage feelings hating him for this more to anything else . But Haru awakens the same desperatly love and hungry : a need unbearable , a totally insane passion bitter and cruel .Never think he can feel it again , without the guilt of the passion for Hoshino . haru gives hin the same without the horror . And he cant resist much more. He sits here , thinking until the morning , cursing and hating himself .. The next days was really peaceful with rain Megumi catch a cold and go to stay in the dojo Sano was here before ,Yahiko learning maths with Haru totally glued to her . sano and haru stays alone for a time and sano asks her if she *too* was crazy for ken .When she , says almost for herself she prefers tall and darkhaired , sano makes a attemp. . . and she escaped more fast than Soujiro.Sano just laugh , and going to the kitchen where Kenshin boil water asks him if he never did want to give a good $%&/ to Haru . ‚‚‚AYYYYYYY!!!!! *Oroooooooooooo* Kenshin no baka ......... Chapter 5 :Bourei no Koushin : ghost walking . A I-cant-sleep Kenshin finds in the night a strange group of ninjas? in the dojo . The no very wise ninjas confuse him with Yahiko but Kenshin stops them and rescue Haruka from a ninja skilled in the Ima Koso Habatake .He leaves te two in his room and ran to the dojo , where Sano and Kaoru figths with a bunch of ninjas .The men , moving like Oniwabanshuu begins to leave . . . but the police is hide out of the dojo , with certain yellow-eyed wolf as leader , waiting. But the most of the ninjas prefer die before said nothing . Haruka finds the katana . Yahiko , scared , looks her eyes turn red , and she take the katana of kazegumi and walk to the dojo like azombi. Yahiko tries to stop her , but ended ripping her kimono and reveals a totally and savaguely scarred white back. Kenshin , the figth ended , look up to find a totally shocked and bloody Haruka in the front of dojo and Saitoh coming from behind . Feels irrational fear and see , unbelievely Saitoh hitting the girl brutaly and begins to order her to get up or he will kill her .Kenshin accuse him of make all of them like a tramp a cannon fodder against the ninjas , and order him to stop the attack to Haru . Saitoh hits Sano & Kenshin and continue with Haruka . The Oska Hawks awake again . The young kazegumi-taichou stops a killer gatotsu and get up like an executioner . Looking her eyes turn totally red Kenshin understand con horror that the Osaka Hawk , the worst sin in his life , the one who did can turn his mind a nightmare of blood and madness was the same lovely amnessic Haruka . She stops the figth, and saying cold but kind thanks and byes to Sano, Kaoru and Yahiko turn lo leave them . Kenshin tried to say something but the Osaka Hawk remebers all, and tell him coldly taht she will be forgive his live for love to Kamiya-san : if she see him again , she will take revenge . The Kazegumi did hate the Oniwabanshuu , and viceversa . And the ninjas did attack like Oniwabanshuus . Saitoh tells her all about the deaths of their olds kazes . And the two go for Aoshi Shinomori . To Kioto . Yahiko tells Haruka how much he is in love with her . She promises to return . Chapter 6 ISHIN NO YAMI : Darkness of Revolution . The Mibu's Wolf and the Osaka Hawk talks friendly about his past in the streets of Kioto . Meanwhile , sano & kenshin go to Kioto determined to find Haruka and take her back ,like Kaoru did made sometime .The two talks long time in the ship , and Kenshin told Sano all about him and Haruka : his original atracction and his hate and horror when he thinks she was a man , the brutal way the battousai hurts her , the silent kiss in the dojo poch , his strange close to her different from Kaoru's love . The fear of her attacking the Oniwabanshuus and the way Saitoh and her fougth together for long time , their frienship . In Kioto , aoshi takes roughly a letter from Misao ,scaring her . Was adressed to the Okashira and Aoshi recognizes the symbol of Kazegumis .. I-d wrote till 11 chapter. but I think is more than enough....sniff.