From: "Carolina Palma" My RK Songfics. by Fox Lady. You Oughta Know (Alanis Morrisette) YAOI AND LEMON WARNING. Yaoi means Male-Male relationships. Lemon means graphic sex . This is a hard yaoi between Sano & Kenshin, so beware. Is as bitter as I could be... ............................................................................ ......... This is my first yaoi Rk fic. I used to read the yaoi from YYH and GW without a single twitch, but with Rk I've just read one yaoi fic that makes sense to me. It's just the Rk cast too manly ? I don't know. Even if I'm trying to work a Kenshin / Soujiroo, there is my first attempt. A Sano/Kenshin one of course. "(, )" denotes imagen. "*,*" denotes lyrics. simple text denotes thoughts. ............................................................................ ........ (The sky is totally blue, with pink cherry petals like a sweet snow. The scene is all whiten by the bright sun of spring, and walking down the stairs of a temple is the Kenshingumi and all their friends, cheering and laughing as Kenshin, carrying Kaoru in his arms orooing happily at all the jokes about " just married") *I want you to know that I'm happy for you* (Sano is in the background, laughing too with Yahiko and Misao blushing about his comments as they walk back to the dojo to celebrate. Slowly his chocolate gaze gets fixed in Kenshin's nape, the red hair sparkling like brass at the sun, as he sweatdrop to an Aoshi's remark about having babies.) *I wish nothing but the best for you both* (His face is quiet even as he replays to Soujiroo's teases about needing a new partner-in crime. Katsu, in his side, take a peek in Sano, worried. In someway, his eyes had never looked so tender, so sad and so hurt... Kaoru and Kenshin was laughing with their foreheads together, and Sano's fist tights, and then relax with a tired smile, as he closes his eyes to hide a tear...) *A better version of me* (He is unaware of Katsu's hands in his shoulder. He just can blink fast, trying to keep his eyes dry. Suddenly s a hard thing to do.) He is going away, forever. He is going away. After all we shared... after all that happened... after all we was one to another, he had chosen her. But he always has known. *Is she as perverted as me?* He can remember clearly the day the both had found a place in the woods, near the river. How they had spent the day practicing and fighting. How, when he finally manages to cheat and catch the rurouni in his arms and make him fall to the ground, suddenly the fight had become something else. (The Sano of the memories jumps over Kenshin, pinning him to the ground and tickling him in the sunset. The both rolls, and when Kenshin ends straddling Sano's hips, suddenly the fighter gave a small moan and turns all red. Kenshin had looked him to the eyes. And when Sano had tried to apart him and rise, the rurouni had gone straight for a kiss, his slender hips pressing Sano's uneasy hardness painfully) *Would she go down on you in a forest?* They had stayed that night in the woods. Under the moonlight, the blue light Kenshin looked etereal and angel-like. The bright red mane flowing over his naked, white back. His fathomless eyes looking to him closely, the way he had moaned and screamed in his arms. Was the first time for Sano. But Kenshin was sweet. Tender. So passionate... *Does she speak eloquently* The both hadn't said anything after. They had stayed awake, cuddled in the grass under the stars, and still breathless for a long time. He was cuddling the shortest body, a scent of fresh flowers in his nose mingled with the unique scent that was just... Kenshin. I longed to say you so much. So much. But when you looked at me with those eyes and your mouth covered mine I lost all my words, all my thoughts... *And would she have your baby *I'm sure she would make a really excellent mother What I have to offer? What more I have to give to you that warmness and confort, sometimes? I'm not a woman who can give to you the family you dream. I'm not the person who can bring you peace... Sano dried his eyes and smiles to the sun again, his face pained and happy ... You are worthy of a lot more than me, my love. You need her, and I'm happy if you are happy... *Cause the love that you gave that we made .. but why still hurts too much... Why you didn't said me what did you feel? Why you let me build illusions about eternal and fiery love? Why did you let me love you with all my heart those nights, why you took all from me? *Wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no You were just seeking pleasure? It's not like you at all. So WHY? is all I need to know for let you go. Just Why. Why you did kiss me. Why you screamed my name when I entered you. And if you were thinking in my face ... or you was seeing her face, when you moaned in my neck "Ai...shiteru..." *And every time you speak her name* Did you make it with Jo-chan? Or I am still the one who had made you scream? Did she knows, How I loved you, how you had rode my hips desperately? (The Kenshin of the memories was totally still. His naked legs are parted wide, his eyes closed, his red long silky hair pooled in the dark grass. Sano was softly over him, sucking the side of his neck, as Kenshin's arms are knots around Sano's broad shoulders, tight whit need.) *Does she know how you told me you'd hold me *Until you died 'til you died " Sano... we will be... together..." you had panted that night in my arms, soothing my first pain. I was crying, I'm not sure if for fear or in happiness. You were so tender and careful. So complete, I felt that night with you sleeping spread over me, your head nested in my chest. Where it must to be. Where I need to be. *But you're still alive * (Sano entered the dojo, helping Yahiko to serve the dinner Tae has provided. His face is serious, and calm, but he smiles brightly to his friends. Even in that way, his eyes are so sad...) *And I'm here to remind you ( His eyes finds Kenshin's in a second over a tray. Kenshin's eyes are calm and clear, but Sano's eyes get wet suddenly. He rises and go out, eyes closed, as fast as he can. ) *Of the mess you left when you went away (He stumbles alone to the yard and hides under a tree. He is trying hard to control, but he just can't, and his hands trembled miserably. He, in sudden fury, kicks the tree hard, and a sudden Hey! caught his attention. He finds Megumi against the tree, sobbing like is no tomorrow.) *It's not fair to deny me (He don't know if laugh or cry. He hugs Megumi and cries over her dark head, knowing exactly what she is feeling. And when she lifted his head to look at him, a pool of tears, and the both laughs bitterly. She knows. Perfectly.) *Of the cross I bare that you gave to me They remain embraced a long time, and then dried their faces with the white shirt. Megumi sighs hard. Sano cleared his throat and breaths deep. Then the both go back to the party.) Oh Kenshin. Why you ask so much, and accept so little? Poor Fox. At least I've loved him one time... I think you and I are really two of a kind, fox. If this weren't so pathetic, I would ask you marriage. *You, you, you oughta KNOW *You seem very well, things look peaceful (A wandering, drunk Sano approaches to the quiet dojo the next day, before the dawn. He stumbles, his feet insecure, and as he enters the dojo in the darkness he can see a peacefully sat Kenshin in yukata, in the porch. His hair was messed for the sleep and the love, and he looks relaxed and happy looking the fading stars.) *I'm not quite as well, I thought you should know (That night Sano has gone drunk like never before. Every drink he got, he tried desperately to forget the feeling of Kenshin's lips in him. To escape from the images in his head of Kenshin loving Kaoru and telling her all that he didn't said to him. As his eyes turns red and all go fozzy, he still needs to release that knot in his throat. That burning ache in his chest. That need...) *Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity ("Sano" his voice was friendly, and warm." What's happen? What are you doing here de gozaru?") . *I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner (His voice puts him in the edge. He just had wished to talk ... just a question. But his contented, soft face makes Sano's drunken mind snaps) *It was a slap on the face how quickly I was replaced (He steps carefully to him. Kenshin was standing in the porch, so their eyes are at the same level. Sano keeps quiet a moment, as his eyes grow dark. A gush of spring breeze feels like cold water to his feverish body. And then, he takes a hard grip in Kenshin's yukata, and making him fall towards him, he whispers fiercely in his ear:) *ARE YOU THINKING OF ME WHEN YOU FUCK HER? (Kenshin's eyes widen, but he can't answer when a hungry, biting mouth takes possession of his. Sano was not gentle; he bites and tore skin, drinking his saliva and blood thirstily. Kenshin makes a strangled sound, but the warrior ignores his frantic intent of release. He is bumped against the wall, and then harshly snatched out from his yukata.) *Cause the joke that you laid in the bed that was me *AND I'M NOT GOING TO FADE " Just one more time and I'll go..." was the grunted motto in his ear. Kenshin wants to scream, but Kaoru is sleeping. He wants to fight, but he doesn't want Kaoru see this. No. *As soon as you close your eyes and you know it Sano enters him making the blood coat his thighs as he bites cruelly his shoulders. Kenshin's arms suddenly tighten in Sano's back as he pumps hard, fast. His own cry is suffocated in his mouth, but before he finds release with that nails blooding his nipples and buttocks, Sano explodes, in hot lava, and let him fall to the ground in a boneless heap as he turns limply and head for the front gate. *And every time I scratch my nails down someone else's back *I hope you feel it ...can you feel it? "Sano!" Kenshin manages to choke. Dazzled for the rape, trembling in pain and fever, he lift a hand, is voice an hoarse whisper." matte... de gozaru..." Sano was gone. And that was the last time anyone saw him. Katsu said he received a letter, from him, saying he is going far away... *And I'm here to remind you *Of the mess you left when you went away (shots of Kenshin talking, cleaning, cooking... with his eyes of a sad, clear violet forever) Sano. White blanket covering me from cold, gone, letting me freeze. A tall figure missing forever just behind him, warm embraces of strong arms here no more. *It's not FAIR TO DENY ME (shots of Sano beaten and being beaten savagely in many fights. He is bleeding badly. But his eyes are devoid of all passion, all life: just blank mirrors) Kenshin. Red angel giving me the heat of his sun in the night. That tiny, frail unsheathed sword, the beautiful, lethal weapon I'd never had in my arms, now so empty and useless... *Of the cross I bare that you gave to me They had lost their half. *YOU, YOU, YOU OUGHTA KNOW ******************************************************** --------------------------- ONElist Sponsor ---------------------------- GRAB THE GATOR! 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