From: "Calista Goh" Heya minna-san~! It's icegal 'ere. ^^ I've been in lurker mode for quite some time. Anyways, this is a fic by my pal, Kagami. It's really nice. So I've decided to post it on her behalf. ^^ Have fun!! *DISCLAIMERS* None of these great characters belong to me....*sniffle* Questions by Kagami Love. What is the meaning of love? How do you love someone? How do you know that you are in love? If others can fall in love, can I? These are the few questions I'm always asking myself. When I heard her crying in the next room, after she heard of Kaoru's death, why did my heart ache so much? I don 't know, but I want to. There was a patter of footsteps, and a voice. "Aoshi- sama, I'm coming in!" There it was. The voice which calms me when I'm nervous. The door opened and she came in. Misao. A girl with dark blue eyes and raven black hair tied into a braid. She walked towards me, smiling. My eyes followed all of her movements. I turned away as she started to notice me looking at her. Why did I turn away from her? I didn't have anything to hide from her. I just turned my head involuntarily. She sat down and stared at me. "Is something wrong?" I asked. There was a short pause. "Nope! Just staring at you," she replied after some hesitation. She seemed to be turning red. She stood up and walked towards the door. Turning around, she said, "Oh yeah! It's almost time for dinner." She flashed me a smile, and walked out of the room. Her smile, yes, what I would like to see on her face all the time. Her smile would always give me a nice feeling deep inside. Why can't I learn how to smile back at her? I would love for once in my life, be able to laugh and joke with her. I sometimes wish that I could shake off my cold exterior, but why can't I? Is it because I'm afraid to smile in front of her? I need an answer. Love. Is that what it is? The thing that causes my heart to beat so rapidly when I see him. The thing that makes me blush sometimes when I speak to him. Yes, I would admit that I've had a crush on him ever since. oh, I can't remember. Whenever I walk past him in the corridor, my heart would skip a beat. When he speaks to me, I would start to blush. I feel like telling him how I feel, but whenever I look at his cold blue eyes, I would always look away. Kenshin told me that it was going to be my duty to make him smile, but I just couldn't seem to do so. I can't just give up like that, I've got to try again. I stood up and walked out of my room, down the corridor and to his room door. I took a deep breath and said, "Aoshi-sama, I'm coming in!" I opened the door and went in. He was meditating again. I put a smile on my face and walked towards him. Was he looking at me? Or is it just my imagination? I sat down and stared at him, bracing myself for what I was going to say next. His cold blue eyes locked onto mine and sent a shiver down my spine. "Is something wrong?" he asked. Oh no! What do I answer? I started to blush and I quickly said what came to my mind next, "Nope! I'm just staring at you." Arghh!! Baka! What type of an answer is that? I got up quickly and headed towards the door. I had to give him a reason for going into the room. Dinner, yes, dinner. "Oh yeah! It's almost time for dinner." I flashed him a smile and hurried out of the room. BAKA!!!!! Another stupid reason. I quickly ran back to my room and closed the door behind me. This is what would always happen when I start to get nervous. I would just give him any stupid reason that comes to my mind, and I get out of the room as soon as possible. I really wish that I would one day, be able to pick up my courage and tell him. But when will that be? ---------------------------END-------------- ---------- --------------------------- ONElist Sponsor ---------------------------- GET WHAT YOU DESERVE! A NextCard Platinum VISA: DOUBLE Rewards points, NO annual fee & rates as low as 9.9 percent FIXED APR. Apply online today! http://www.onelist.com/ad/nextcard1 ------------------------------------------------------------------------