Subject: [kffdisc] very small aoshi poem Date: Thu, 29 Apr 1999 03:01:33 -0400 From: "luthien" Reply-To: kffdisc@onelist.com To: From: "luthien" Hi minna, well...this is my first RK fan-poem ever, so.....be tolerant?! ^_^;; actually, this is my first fan-fic/poem ever.. better than nothing, though, I guess.. ( o_o ) IMHO, Aoshi-sama's just a big softie at heart, he just doesn't know how to .. express.. his feelings.. ". . ."?? Here goes, anyway... *I go delving inside Aoshi-sama's mind...* ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ What Aoshi really thinks as he meditates... A Life filled with laughter and joy, All the things that I long for, All the things that are not mine. And yet, he has them all. Why? Why am I cold and lost While he has everything? Why? He has committed crimes- unspeakable horrors, as have I, But, he has escaped his ghosts, his guilt, While my heart, my soul are still cold, Frozen over in perpetual winter, A land forsaken by the sun. Battou-, no, *Kenshin*, I hated you before, Still, you made me see the light And although it was cold and blinding It was better than existing alone in the dark. Now, I realize I just envy you the more For having what I only have in my dreams Finally, wearily, I found the way home as The gentle breeze rustled the autumn leaves I wonder at their beauty and am gladdened To find that I can still believe in hope, in life, In friendship, Kenshin, and for that I am grateful. But now, my friend, I must hurry home - My blue eyed girl's waiting for me; I *do* have some-one to call my own. ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Always wanted to set up a book club, but can't find the time? http://www.onelist.com Create an online book club through ONElist.