It's supposed to be about Aoshi before and during the Kyoto saga. x_x I think...

Reflections of Me

I can't say the right thing anymore.
I can't do the right thing anymore.
All I see are failures and worse.
My pride is gone.
My purpose is gone.
I have abandoned my family and my friends.
I have abandoned myself.
What is there left for me?
Who am I now?
I can't recognize the person who glares back at me from the mirror.
As everything falls to pieces around me,
I can't even force myself to put them and me back together.
Who will I be when the last piece shatters and comes crashing down?
I wonder in dread.
Who will I be?
Surely not the man I was.
Surely not the man I had wanted to be.
Will I even be a man when that times comes?
Or will I become the monster I see reflected in the mirror?

by Meimi