Here's the Songfic I promised. This is my first, so go easy if I put the lyrics in the wrong place, if Kenshin OOC,(But that's kind of part of the plot.) or this drags on way to long. (Heck I'm writing this brainfried from finals this week, so I might have to revise it.) Once again, the song kinda goes to True Love, the theme for A wind called Amnesia. (Maybe when I put my page up, I'll make a wave of it to download....if I can find a singer@_@) All the heaven I need. A Kenshin and Karou songfic by Sentora "Kenshin...." One of the room's shadows moved at Karou's whimper, worry and amber flickering in violet eyes. I even worry her in her sleep, Kenshin thought. Sneaking into Karou's room at night wasn't something he wanted to make a habit of. Hell, if she caught him...Visions of a demonic Karou beating him senseless danced in his head, Kenshin grinning ruefully. But he had to see her now. (Music starts....) It may be the last time he ever saw her. Midnight blue eyes, A soul like pure snow. No....Don't think like that. It will only take a month. He looked at the letter in his hand. I swear it will. You've trapped me girl.... And I hope you never let go. He admired her sleeping form with a sigh. Even asleep, her hair slightly askew and disheveled, she looked like an angel. He didn't know what drew him to her more: Her beauty or her fierce spirit or her innocence. Ether way....I belong to her, now and forever. I can't escape even if I wanted to, really. But I have to go. For everyone's sake. I won't let Enishi win after all we've been through. But are we strong enough, For the risk we must take? The headache returned full force, Kenshin almost staggering as bit back the urge to scream. He wasn't fully recovered from the poison that had been Enishi's parting gift before the battle's end, My guarentee to see you in hell, he said. The poison promised a slow, painful death and driving you insane as well. Megumi may of stopped it from killing me, but I still feel it's affects....Hearing the voices of the dead, calling for revenge or Tomoe begging for help.... And worse of all, awaking the sleeping killer within. Repeating the past..... Is a fear I can't shake.... The whole ordeal had shattered him more than he admitted to anybody. And in this moment of weakness, Battousai was starting to return stronger than ever. He could hear him even now in the back of his mind, laughing at him for thinking he could bury him forever. No way in hell was he going to endanger Karou again. Not if he could help it. But denying I love you, Is a fight I can't win. Even though you deserve more Than someone so stained with sin... So he had to leave again, not to save his country as before, but himself before he hurt his family. Why even bother? Since it's doomed from the start I should just give up.... Family. Hmph. If I really cared for them I'd stay away. I only bring them pain. But tell that to my heart.... *Then again,* Battousai sneered in my mind as I glanced at Karou. *We're too selfish to do that, ne?* Oh god what can I do? Can you show me the way? Can I really protect her For the rest of our days Of the Battousai I'll never be free But you still have hope You won't give up on me.... *We've never backed down from anything, have we? Nether has she. I don't know what she sees in us,* Battousai smirked. But that girl isn't going to give up and nether should you.* Shut up, Kenshin croaked. Even if god himself Can't forgive my deeds *What's it gonna take for you to see that she loves you?* I already do....Kenshin replied. That's why I'm doing this...to protect her from 'you'. As long as you love me, That's all the heaven I need. Battousai chuckled at that. *I'll always be here....a part of you and you know it. Don't use me as an excuse. * And then he was gone. I've tried so hard to fight it. Tell myself it wasn't real, Kenshin sighed. I don't need you as an excuse....I have enough as it is. But am I being selfish in loving her? She derserves someone that won't get her kidnapped or killed every other week. A man who can protect her and love her until her last day on earth. Can I really give her that? Probably not. How you've stolen my heart How your smile makes me feel But since when has the impossible stopped me? But deep down inside, I know it's a lie..... Careful not to wake her, he crept close to her bed..... I can run from my feelings, But I cannot hide. He tucked the covers around her, gently stroking her hair down to her cheek. Karou mummured his name again, now smiling in her sleep. Sometimes he wondered how her life would be if he didn't fall into it. He knew how his would have been. Lonely and meaningless.... Then before I knew it, The weeks turned into years.... Or was it their destiny to meet each other? Karou His redemption and He to fill the void of her lonely life? Lost count of the love you's That never reached your ears. If it was, Kami-sama's got a werid sense of humor. These guility hands This bloodstained soul, Still, he wasn't complaining. This was the closest to happiness he would ever come. More than he derserved really. How can I ever find peace When the past won't let go? Reluctantly he let go, gently kissing her on her forehead before placing the letter on her table. Sayonara, Karou....Koibuto.... Till we meet again. Oh, God what can I do? Can you show me the way? Can I really protect her For the rest of our days? Of Battousai I'll never be free But you still have hope, You just won't give up on me.... Even if God himself Can't forgive my deeds As long as you love me That's all the heaven I need.... Heart breaking with every step, he left her room, closing the door. Just a month, he repeated to himself, just a month to get over this. You taught me to love again It's a debt I can never repay I will return to you, Karou. I don't deserve you, But I promise you someday.... I promise. I'll be yours And you'll be mine. Just give this De gozaru Just a little more time..... He placed the second letter on the kitchen table. The one for Yahiko, Sano and Megumi. The one he wrote for Karou was much more private. Then gathering his stuff, he started on his journey. To make peace with his past I won't rest until I do. Just before he opened the gate, he took on last look at the dojo, eyes glistening with unshed tears. But until then.... And I always keep my promises. And then he was gone. I'll be dreaming of you...... (Music slowly ends.)